I look around this empty room and wonder where all my homies went
my doors closed and my hearts losing its openness
my girl left and I keep pretending I'm over it
walking to the liquor store to run from loneliness
I'm hearing all this racket over that they serving up over the net
in the form of forced jabs out of these jokers lips
and I don't mean c**** shit
but the way keep tryna poke me got me feeling like Novak Djokovic
Pouring so much vodka I can barely taste soda mix
copious amounts just to covertly cope with this shit
reasonable doubts pull me down if I over think
but deep down I'm really out here thinking like Hov and shit
my bro said he hasn't seen me getting this bent in while
told him that I'm fine and flashed a less the genuine smile
never show weakness that's a part of a gentlemen's vow
life got ups and down sweet and sours like General Tao
I'm all in I spent YEcRS in this
ducking false narratives and spared myself of any embarrassment
seen highs and lows over snow like chair lifts
and seen friends smoked in real time as they spirit lift
and I ain't no street guy, I guess its just where we live
I know I got some demons that secrete where my spirit is
wish I could make ego shrink and speak to a therapist
to finally get relief from all the grief I been carrying
not to mention my family shit that keeps re hatching
even after I swore that I took the hatchet buried it
guess that it got dug out, makes me wanna go and get the number from the plug out
in others news career's going great
first person in my city to spit it on Sway
that's why I use the third person when speaking on Quake
I'm upper echelon, been a don, name ring bells as a result of my inner calm
smell a fake from a mile away like a Cinnabon/
I'm from the days of hit me after 6 my minutes gone
double colt 45's for the sing along, bring em' on
my bro said he hasn't seen me getting this bent in while
told him that I'm fine and flashed a less the genuine smile
never show weakness that's a part of a gentlemen's vow
life got ups and down sweet and sours like General Tao