Yeah, yeah
I let you take over
I let you convince me
I cannot handle this sober
The demon that took my life with a knife to my throat but
I let you inside and lied to myself I ain’t stronger
Begging for help stupid as fuck
Damage I dealt playing victim but who would’ve thought
Killing myself with a bottle I couldn’t get enough
I let you win took my life I was begging for luck
I sold my soul for a good time
And with your assistance I can double up on six lines
Let my body shake and for the sixth time in two months
Couldn’t see it coming, I was too blind you were too soft
And you can never catch me calling whose bluff, this is too much
Mind too blurry to even know what I’m running from
Tattoos in the forearm when I push you mom, I’m sorry mom
Maybe it’s because I feel so alone, thought we were friends
Hold my hand, you were just taking me closer to the edge
That’s not who I am I feel so possessed by my fucking past
Begging all my friends for another chance, what about the last
Substance in my system I’m less depressed, I’m free at last
Then I sober up to the consequence of every act

What am I running from? Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trying to find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be?
What am I running from? Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trying to find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be?
Lost at sea where could you be?
You can’t trust yourself so trust me
No, no, no, no I gotta let go
No turning back I’m off that road
No, no, no, no I gotta let go
I gotta let go
No, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no

You gotta kill the dark side to see the light at the end
Well life is short then why wasting shit trying to pretend
See I don’t call on God asking for a hand he could lend
Carving the scars in my arm wait for a sign to be sent
Yuh mind in a straightjacket, fuck it I hate asking
I’m traumatized I hate my eyes and I can’t wait passive
Fuck your natural cause of pain, never knock at the door
Just breaking in and leave you bloody all over the floor
Pressure between my ears, I live my life in fear
For inner peace and the release I do eleven years
I’m fading through this life
And even though I wouldn’t change a single thing
I swear on mine I wouldn’t live it twice
Don’t need your pity I’m in the pit with a fifty
And me not pulling the trigger, it’s me, fighting off inner demons
Just need a fucking reason, my mind committing treason
I am my enemy I fight to keep on breathing

What am I running from? Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trying to find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be?
What am I running from? Escaping all my failures
I’m just so sorry ma, I gotta see you later
What is this sick disease that lives and feeds off PatricKxxLee
I’m trying to find myself but he’s just lost at sea where could he be?
Lost at sea where could you be?
You can’t trust yourself so trust me
No, no, no, no I gotta let go
No turning back I’m off that road
No, no, no, no I gotta let go
I gotta let go
No, no, no, no, no, no
No, no, no, no, no