Self hate feeling heavier than lead
Everyday miracles
Happen that I neglect
Suicidal thoughts
Popping up inside my head
Had to train my brain
To think of other things instead
Loving life finding friends
So close to overdose
So close to giving up
A closed door
That would never open up
Thinking I was boarded shut
Wasn't worth being loved
But was worth beating up
These thoughts grew feet now there
Running around in my head
Telling me that
I'm better off leaving them dead
I could wallow in my weakest
Or rise to defeat this
Instead of repeat this
Self doubt trying double down on me every weekend
But I found love for my life
And A reason for breathing
Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost
Reminds me we are always so close
Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost
Reminds me we are always so close
I want to die eating ice cream
I want to die filled with love
I want to live with the belief
That all this means something
Deep down I know It does
I want to live feeling grateful
I want to live having fun
In a place with people who know me
Reminiscing on what was
I want to die eating ice cream
I wanna die by a lake
I don't wanna live forever
Maybe just 108, (Lazy!)
I accept that we're all gonna die
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
But with that said
I don't wanna die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We all go
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We go
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We all go
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We go
Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost
Reminds me we are always so close
Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost
Reminds me we are always so close
I want to die eating ice cream
I want to die filled with love
I want to live with the belief
That all this means something
Deep down I know It does
I want to live feeling grateful
I want to live having fun
In a place with people who know me
Reminiscing on what was
I want to die eating ice cream
I wanna die by a lake
I don't wanna live forever
Maybe just 108, (Lazy!)
I accept that we're all gonna die
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
But with that said
I don't wanna die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
I don't want to die today
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We all go
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We go
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We all go
Somewhere
Somehow
Someway
We go
Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost
Reminds me we are always so close
Fog of my breath, looks likes a ghost
Reminds me we are always so close