I used to find it in the light seeping through my door
In the way that it reflected and absorbed
How it always seemed to cast a bright enough glow
To know I was enough and not alone
When pain was just a beat up knee on the East side boardwalk
There was no fear or shame or small talk
And I was free to feel every beat inside of me
Now I'm hiding away from the words in my head
'Cause they've learned the difference between unspoken and unsaid
Don't know if I feel it at all, if I just don't
Unsure if I'm more afraid of what I'll say, or what I won't
May not have anything to say but I've got nothing left to lose
May not have anything to feel but I've got this feel for the truth
May not have anyone to love but I've got these words in my head
They're saying you're all I want in the end
I just don't wanna find you yet
Now I find it in between a lot of things
In the way that I now hold on to my dreams
Not above the noise but in its midst
Not knuckles white but not fingertips
May not have anything to say but I've got nothing left to lose
May not have anything to feel but I've got this feel for the truth
May not have anyone to love but I've got these words in my head
They're saying you're all I want in the end
I just don't wanna find you yet
'Cause Manhattan and loneliness
Were much better when unaware of themselves
When they'd kick up the dust and not let it collect on the shelf
May not have anything to say but I've got nothing left to lose
May not have anything to feel but I've got this feel for the truth
May not have anyone to love but I've got these words in my head
They're saying you're all I want in the end
I just don't wanna find you yet