Khalil my brother
i'm so happy i got to know you
it's an honor to say that i was once your friend
i had met you
through javi and through tj
when they brought you to my apartment in tampa

we were playing
drinking games on the coffee table
and you threw up cause you weren't used
to the way it felt
you were embarrassed
and i told you hey man it's okay
and at least it didn't get on the carpet and then we laughed

but who would've thought
that we would get to meet that way
and that slowly get to see each other much more
and i would drive
about 20 minutes each way
just to pick you up and have you in my home

you would sleep in
on my green little Ikea futon
about twice to maybe 5 times a week
and i didn't mind

for it had loved you
for your kindness and genuine compassion
for your smile and your dumb little jokes
and the way you were there

and i'd cry about the past
like how fucked up i got from graham
you would get me and help my to move one to what's next
and when you were down
i'd be there always to hear you out
with my open arms and maybe some food
while you let it out

i can't forget you
even if tried
even if i'm tired
and i crash out
and i wish i did more
wish i could've saw
all the fucking signs
when i left town
i won't forget you
even if i lose
even if i cant
remember myself
and i wish i knew more
wish i could've stayed
would've been around
to help you out


i will honor
you the only way that i know how
khalil mon frere
i will miss you for all of my life
and will carry this guilt until the day i die