Men don’t get emotional
Men don’t cry I know for fact
She says, “What you feel?”
Don’t know how to respond to that
Negative emotions kill my vibe
So I put them deep inside
And I know they deprive
Sometimes I try to cry
I can’t and I don't know why
And so I get back on my grind
Money’s long, never stops
By the time I’m 21
I’ve retired my mom
Daddy died when I was 19
Granny died when I was 14
War started when I was 12
When I was 19, war hit me again
Double-time refugee
All my life I run, that’s on me
When I die, not on me
Air Force 1, that’s on me
Rocket in my yard, not on me
Chicago seems like peaceful city to me, homie

Traumatized about my past
Therapy been so long
Ain’t been happy so long
Been moving so solo
Only feeling sorrow
Felt that I was so lost
Don’t wanna feel it no more


I will laugh about my problems
Ain’t no way I’m gonna cry
My therapist told me I should
But I don’t know if I even could
I’m just gonna rap about it
Put my pain in paint
I can’t stress about it
I can drink about it
I can smoke about it
Marlboro red about it
Marlborough Sun about it
All that stuff in me
I don’t like to think
Hate being sober
I want this shit over
I want this shit over


Frame by frame I collect
All my memories in puzzle
I remember when i struggle
And that time had made me tougher
Wouldn’t I have been
The man I am right now
If not for times I’d love to be forgotten
Questioned my own sanity
My best friend was anxiety
It’s got me to this flow variety
And all this chasing money probably
Such tough guy mentality
Can’t be weak, it’s not an option
Told my closest that I got you

I ain't did rap in years
It healed me when I need
But years have passed me by
I’ve done nothing but try
Be tough, be right, be better
Should’ve just been a rapper


I will laugh about my problems
Ain’t no way I’m gonna cry
My therapist told me I should
But I don’t know if I even could
I’m just gonna rap about it
Put my pain in paint
I can’t stress about it
I can drink about it
I can smoke about it
Marlboro red about it
Marlborough Sun about it
All that stuff in me
I don’t like to think
Hate being sober
I want this shit over
I want this shit over