I've been livin' everyday it's to the point where I can't fake it
I be smokin' up and drinkin' up but don't do medication
I just struggle tryin' to find myself it's mixed and matched locations
I don't know what's goin' on I'm just so damaged and I'm breakin'
Now I'm fuckin' shakin' Demons and these heathens in my mind I just
Can't take it Told me that you love me shawty
Why the fuck you fake it?
To numb to the core so I don't need your
Explanation I don't need your explanation
Gave you all my love you gave me lust I got impatient
Left me real heartbroken I ain't even think I'd make it
Spendin' everyday like it's my last been gettin' faded
Open up my book and I'll just scribble out the pages
Tore it out and broke my heart and left it on the pavement
Everything you said I bet you said to your replacement
Try to fuckin' love you you just want the entertainment
Now I got a monster in me and I can't contain it
I said everyday is rainy it gets cloudy in my brain
But the cloudier it gets I seem to get used to the pain
And I've been slittin' up my wrist until I'm exposing my vein
You got me all fucked up now I don't know if I can change
And I had knots in my stomach but now I feel this rage
People always walkin' by don't ask me if I am okay
And I've been chasin' after love it's somethin' that I can't obtain
People wonder why I'm traumatized it's too hard to explain
I got steckyy wrapped around my neck you see it on the chain
When I hit the booth I'm spittin' I ain't never playin' games
Most of y'all be walkin' pushin' p I'm always pushin' pain
You can never take a loss when you can always have a gain
I got fake friends tryin' to call me I ain't kick it with them lames
I ride solo not for promo I ain't switchin' in my lane
They always ask me how I feel and I tell them I am okay
But everyday it's fucked up swear to God I always feel the same
I've been livin' everyday it's to the point where I can't fake it
I be smokin' up and drinkin' up but don't do medication
I just struggle tryin' to find myself it's mixed and matched locations
I don't know what's goin' on I'm just so damaged and I'm breakin'
Now I'm fuckin' shakin' demons and these heathens in my mind I just can't take it
Told me that you love me shawty why the fuck you fake it
Too numb to the core so I don't need your explanation
I don't need your explanation
I got steckyy wrapped around my neck you see it on the chain
When I hit the booth I'm spittin' I ain't never playin' games
Most of y'all be walkin' pushin' p I'm always pushin' pain
You can never take a loss when you can always have a gain