There are many like us
Still don't know what I am, still haven't figured myself out yet
Be gentle with my heart
I feel so close to death (close to death)
(I am waiting for...)
I am waiting for the day I am free and fearless again, these things take time
Happiness has to be fought for, it is worth fighting for
I know I'll be okay
You will be okay too if you hold on long enough
We've always been here and we always will be here
You're never as alone as you think
Love yourself, stay safe, stay strong
Be proud of yourself
Being queer is scary
But we can't help it, because we love who we love
I love that I'm queer, I love that I have queer friends
I love that we're thriving despite the erasure
I'm not sure if I love you but I feel safe in your arms
I was longing for your lips, the delicacy, the tenderness, and the enchantment to stop time for a while
It was grey and drizzling and I was in pain
But when we kissed for the first time, all of that melted away, leaving only you at the centre of my universe
You came and changed the weather
We kissed and our stars collided
Everything was suddenly clear and calm
I could feel the static on my lips for two hours
I felt those butterflies people talk about
The earth stopped moving
I did not know euphoria could feel this good.
We fell in love before I knew I was capable of falling
I am living a real dream
You told me you had feelings for me
I'm not sure I have any feelings at all
If I died today that would be enough
My love for you is silent but loud
Good memories were made here, pity they're only memories now
How painful it is to live by our nature in this geography of the Earth
You went abroad and everything changed
I wish things were not this complicated
I wish I had the courage to do something about it
I wish I could come back
I just hope you're well
I felt feelings so hard that I fell through the ground
You break my heart with every word you speak to me 'cause I'm so fucking in love
I know queer people are everywhere but it never felt like that
I don't want to hurt my family, but I cannot live a
Lie
I never wanted to be this way
Constantly between happiness and pain
Still unlearning shit I internalized
I did violence to my own heart
We performed love against the law
I wish I could kiss you without shame
But I played the part I was expected to
I outshined and I overcompensated to be loved
I got tired of waiting
The walls came down, and still are, one brick at a time
No matter how many laws they impose
You can't take my God away from me
Fuck the bigots
This town is full of fake bullying teenagers
Being gay here fucking sucks
Why do I still feel so ashamed?
I am always in danger of losing my life
I'm terrified
I contemplated throwing myself off the rocks
I still hate you for how much you made me love you
I want to hate you so bad but I can't
(I've always imagined you and me sitting out in the sun, hand and hand, free at last
We spoke of all the places we would go if we could, yet you are gone now
If I had known that bombs raining down on us would take you from me
I would have gladly told the world how I adored you more than anything)
I'm sorry I was a coward
You died in the bombing
I think a big part of me died too
And soon I will be dead
I'm not leaving my home, come what may.
It seems a hundred years ago
But I'll probably think of you every day
I would trade anything to go back
I will kiss you in heaven
I adored you more than anything
I will love you forever, my sunshine
I'm sorry I was a coward