I talked to Syd the other day
And I practiced all the things I'd say
And he was out waiting to go
He was dressed in my clothes
Know that I tried so hard to make this right
After staying up all night
Taking calls and picking fights
Know that I do this for you
"Is it okay if its falling apart?
Because it was like this from the start"
And I know what you did
And even worse
I don't know why you did it
"You know boys like us never learn"
But you're talking about yourself
Epitome of health
Inconsistent reassurance

But I don't get to have that
I don't get to have that
I don't get to have that
I don't get to have that

Without the weight
You can't see the marks
It gets so much worse
Trust in me, I know it can

But I don't get to have that
I don't get to have that
I don't get to have that
I don't get to have that