Sometimes I wish I was the perfect girl
A girl who still got dressed for Sunday service
A girl whose faith hadn't been drained from her by the horrors she witnessed
I wish I was as graceful with floral scented breath and perfect pink lips
But I know my burnt, plush lips have tints of my reality
And when I whisper in your ear
My breath speaks volumes of long authentic nights
Filled with utter joy in the midst of escape

Sometimes I wish I was the perfect girl
Polite and gentle in embodiment
But I know my character cuts as deep as the sharpest blade
And that there is nothing gentle about the flames that you see in my eyes
I wish I was as honest with myself as I am with others
That I wasn't so fearful of rejection
That I wasn't so extreme with every emotion
That I didn't feel so deeply
But I know I'm passionate as fuck
And that it oozes into every part of who I am

Sun in Leo
God I'm a weirdo
A woman of fire
A woman of power
She is the sun
She is brave
Her heart is gold
And she's got maybe just a bit too much love to give

You're a star
Growing up that was my bed time story
My grandma never failed to manifest that shit
I guess my light has always been brighter
So bright I'd try dim it because I guess
I'm a little modest

Sometimes I wish I was the perfect girl
But, I'm not
And I never will be
I'm so imperfect and I'm so in love with it
We really don't need to always have everything figured out
And that's the beauty of this journey
I will always be the perfect imbalance