It's hard to keep myself from losing it
To keep myself from doing it once again
It's hard to free myself from trying it
I don't know what I want from myself again

It's hard to keep it for myself
To hide it day by day
I'm a shame
It's hard to think when I know my mind sinks
When I know I'm to blame

It destroys me as much as it heals me 'cause I want to be with you
But I can't because I'm taken
I really am a broken man

I'm scared of saying it out loud
You can't run with the hare and hunt with the hounds
I left my guilt all over the name
I'm fully grown
Fully grown disgrace

It's hard to keep it for myself
To hide it day by day
I'm a shame
It's hard to think when I know my mind sinks
When I know I'm to blame

I'm to blame"