(This shit is goin' hard, everyday, shit)

Standing at the end
There's no one, no friend
I never stopped pretending
That I wasn't hurt until the end, I'm

I'm all alone my friend (I'm all alone my friend)
Staring at the end (staring at the end)
I never stopped pretending
That I wasn't hurt until the end, I

Try make amends but it’s too late
Even when it’s their way they still gonna violate
Even though I’m 18 these are my after years
I been through too much to try get out of here
I went ** crazy
I don’t know what’s real
Shows feel surreal, yea
Ima talk to rats in my head when I’m all alone yea
Ima talk to rats in my head when I’m all alone yuh
Yea it’s river, uh uh I’m so alone
Yea it’s river, yuh uh uh uh ohhh

Sometimes I say things I ain't really want to meant to
Sometimes I say things I ain't even really tried to do
But I've been trying so hard and I think I can say to you
You can clearly see I'm tired by my eyes, is the fucking it's true
People been noticing, my sanity it's fucked up,
I got asked by mom if want kill myself
I said that I don't and I don't need no help
And I don't need no help but damn, I need some help
Things got hard, life's fucked up
I said that I don't cuz I'm still being your son
And it actually don't matter, as yours pockets getting fatter
You don't care if I'm better, and it's facts, I'm clever
So to people who still caring and listening to my songs
Just know that you're my reason to stay in life, to keep it up and move on
And if you're another hater, know I don't give a ****