I want to feel feelings
But I don't want to feel this feeling
I know I'll get hurt
When I pick up this chain
And pull out the ocean

I want to go sailing
But when she asks "how've you been?"
And "what are you up to?"
That's the wind that will drag me
That I'm breathing and choking on

Now I'm with my dog
Who lets me be messy
As long as I'm warm at the center
And she was like that
But I tripped at the stairs
And I'm not sure that I've gotten better

My monsoon's a whisper
To the world unhinging down to a crawl
But in the woods of psychic crashes
This is the branch
That I'm breaking on

When she texted she'll be in town
I was eating grapes in a cupboard
I haven't seen her in so long
And now that we'll jump
Inside from our corners

I wake up and I
Feel chilled to my bones
In June with a coat and a sweater
Cause she was like that
But I tripped at the stairs
And I'm not sure that I've gotten better