No one knows
This is what it felt like
No one sees
This is what it felt like
Underneath the ochre haze of the forsaken sky
A blinding light descends and I can't fathom why
Frantic heart frozen in place—time's cruel parody
They descend envoys of cosmic iniquity
The probing gleam tears through the fabric of my mind
An unholy rapture reality unconfined
Their tools like tendrils slither 'neath my trembling skin
A waking nightmare orchestrated by their sin
Alien whispers claw at the edges of my psyche
Their vile symphony a discordant litany
Each note a searing agony a twist a tear
A souvenir of the otherworldly affair
Through corridors of light in sterile silence I am pulled
Among their kind a spectacle poked and lulled
Beneath their gaze humanity's but a stain—a blight
Their experiments scribe tales of terror through the night
Silence—A descent into purgatorial dawn
Cast out on the road life reshaped spirit torn
A husk of the past breathing dust of a forsaken trove
The begrimed pavement my cradle the cosmos my cove
Into the arms of Earth once more crudely thrown
Where my words of the void would be met with a stone
Tales of the probing lights meet skeptical ears
My reality my torment my pain only I revere
No one knows
This is what it felt like
No one sees
This is what it felt like
No one knows
This is what it felt like
No one sees
This is what it felt like
Eyes once warm now a void of despair
A gaze that returns the world's cold vacant stare
In mirrors I find a stranger twisted and defaced
A grotesquery born from the stars interlaced
Each shudder a memory of their vile artifice
My body a canvas of their morbid edifice
A madness blooms within the core of my sanity's breach
While whispers of the cosmos in silence beseech
The earthbound world recoils from what I've become
A spectacle of terror under suspicion's thumb
A pariah pacing through life's indifferent thrum
Each heartbeat a reminder of the distant hum
The pain a relentless tutor of my flesh's confession
My dissolution a spectacle of their possession
Limbs contort and voices erupt from my throat unbid
An orchestra of horrors on this stage I'm slid
The laughter of children a sound now so grotesque
Warped and twisted like my visage arabesque
In the sun's once tender caress I feel only burns
For the cold embrace of the cosmos my essence yearns
And then the yearning grows an insidious bloom
A longing for my captors' touch in the echoing gloom
Embrace the agony the torment so rife
For in their otherworldly arms I found life
No one knows
This is what it felt like
No one sees
This is what it felt like
No one knows
This is what it felt like
No one sees
This is what it felt like
Strangers' eyes hold only disgust they cannot see
How the stars' brutal love unfurled the truest me
In the shadow of their grand design I am but a shard
To the darkness of their world I stand the lone guard
Amidst the scorn I find a perverse form of delight
A Stockholm heart calloused by the alien blight
I pray for return for the pain their cruel affix
For only in chains of the stars do I find my crucifix