I wish I woke up and that none of this was real
I hate that I can’t even tell you how I feel
What did I do for you to see me and not choose
Even after all the heartbreak I still miss you


You said you love me and worry about my mental state
If you loved so much tell me why you couldn’t stay
We could’ve worked on each other and found a better way
Beating odds and pushing past what other people say
I hate this feeling of missing the biggest part of me
I miss you so fucking much that the pain still bothers me
You were my reason for turning down anger peacefully
When I was down and defeated you were that peace for me
Now I’m alone fighting demons
What’s your reason for leaving
To better yourself for somebody else when you know you had me to believe in
My emotions are bleeding
Hell my heart is defeated
I beat up myself for not asking for help because you knew what I needed
I miss the nights when we held each to go escape
From reality hunting us and our mental state
Slow dancing in the dark letting the love fill up the space
When I was anxious and flustered your smile would changed the pace
Now I’m alone in these times
When usually you were the force of joy that always seem to bring me alive
Now I’m tied
To post traumatic stress that come from behind
Who am I
This lie I try to live to settle my pride
Shit I’m tired
I miss your smile and waking with you right next to me
And now that you are gone I have to find what’s next for me
I wish didn’t cause I swear you were the best for me
So I’ll just drown in my sorrow to peace the rest of me

I wish I woke up and that none of this was real
I hate that I can’t even tell you how I feel
What did I do for you to see me and not choose
Even after all the heartbreak I still miss you

You told me you never would leave me again and you’ll stand by my side through the rain
You promised to love me forever but now that you gone I feel like I’m insane
How can love be for me when every time that I love I end up in some pain
Missing the memories that we created so if love is a drug you’re my strain
A puzzle that’s missing a final piece is incomplete and that’s how my heart feels
My heart is so broken my mind unknowing l don’t know if I’ll ever heal
The way that I miss you and face other issues it feel like my life is unreal
It’s killing me over and over and over I really don’t know how to feel
You and me together that’s forever perfect recipe
You broke my heart again I need a friend before I rest in piece
Don’t know if you were ready cause yo heart was playing hide and seek
You left me at a the worse time in my life and that shit cut to deep
Now I’m alone in these times
When usually you were the force of joy that always seem to bring me alive
Now I’m tied
To post traumatic stress that come from behind
Who am I
This lie I try to live to settle my pride
Shit I’m tired
I miss the times when we would stay up late and talk bout nothing
I miss us staring in each other eyes to spark the loving
I miss excitement when you missed me and you came a running
Now I’m cold and I don’t even know who I’m becoming
Miss the silly pictures we take they also hold some meaning
Miss the simple nights watching a movie just to see you sleeping
Wish that I could have you back cause I feel like my heart is sinking
Thought I was enough to keep you happy that was wishful thinking

I wish I woke up and that none of this was real
I hate that I can’t even tell you how I feel
What did I do for you to see me and not choose
Even after all the heartbreak I still miss you