Innocent til I’m guilty that’s what my conscious told me
Guilty lies I committed I let my fear control me
Blinded by my own judgment sometimes my past can hold me
I wish the younger me knew the older me would feel lonely
Vicious cycle of fucking up cause I’m insecure
Dodged commitments to feelings because I wasn’t sure
Regret will visit when vivid dreaming becomes to sure
Now I’m in prison of mental illness I’m fighting more
How can you save me when I was aiming to lock this door
Why am I angry I hate this feeling of mental war
My state of envy has rotten me like an apple core
If I can’t look in the mirror who do I answer for
I feel I’m captive for being somebody that I’ll hate
I could do more and be different my demons contemplate
I feel so drained by this game I’m playing to seal me fate
My mind is pacing my heart is racing can’t correlate
Them quiet nights where my mind was free man I sure do miss it
No point in keeping it forward if I’m still reminiscing
I see the good in most people they call it optimistic
They stab my back and I’m back where I started mental prison
I’m lock in hurt
I drown in pain
I’m on alert
They call my name
My mind revert
I’m still the same
I can’t convert
Am I to blame
I’m Introvert
To hide in shame
I’m Extrovert
To hide my pain
My demons flirt
I go insane
And I still hurt
Who can I blame

Innocent til I’m guilty that’s what my conscious told me
Guilty lies I committed I let my fear control me
Blinded by my own judgment sometimes my past can hold me
I wish the younger me knew the older me would feel lonely
I sit in silence to picture a moment where I’m happy
Norman bates cause my personalities can distract me
Imprisonment diminishing my normality
I wish this mirror let me warn the other side of me
I grab my fear and I let it gain that control of me
I see my shadows that looking down standing over me
The sadness that I once conquered is grabbing hold of me
I try to fight back but honestly this is home for me
To see my veins and want to cut em is abandonment
To see my past and understand I never managed it
Is the reason you take my heart to dismantle it
Holding myself captive is my real imprisonment