So it starts again: I talk about you behind your back
And to your face, so you hide your face from attack
I used to think you think I’m mean, now I know you think I am
And maybe you’re right, but that was never the plan
I guess I didn’t know how to deal, so I opted for tough love
If it was love at all, ‘cause I’m not sure it was
I just thought you were dumb, maybe even lazy
And I don’t think it’s mutual, but I’m pretty sure you hate me
And this didn’t have to be
Cause I’m learning things about me
Oh, and with any luck, I thought, you got got like twenty years to go
But that’s if you learn some damn self-control
Taking hit after hit, didn’t you see the warning signs
How weren’t they enough to get you to ignore the high
Who’s even left in your circle still? I’m one of few and I’m breathing fire
What kind of son am I to make you want to get even higher
Oh, and I know my grief ain’t what you need
You’re already fighting your own, plus the dopamine
And this didn’t have to be
Cause I’m learning things about me
Like how I realized that this ain’t just an attitude
And the stress of the whole damn thing, I think, has got me doing it, too
I’ve become what I scold you for, so it’s time to change my tune
Yeah, I started to realize that I, I’m an addict, too
Looking back I still can’t support what you did objectively
But now I’m in it, too, and I see the way you look at me
You ain’t letting me back in now, too much vitriol
And even if I could help, you’d never let me know
And this didn’t have to be
Cause I’m learning some things about me lately
Like how I realize that this ain’t just an attitude
And the stress of the whole damn thing, I think, has got me doing it, too
I’ve become what I scold you for, so it’s time to change my tune
Yeah, I started to realize that I, I’m an addict, too