There's this girl, kinda curly hair
And she talks to me like she doesn't care
But I don't know, kinda think she does
Gives it all away when she starts to laugh
And I choose to ignore the signs
Just in case they might be lies
But that part of me keeps holding on to the fantasy of a rom com
And you don't have to tell me twice
Coz I've been told for my whole life
'Get your head back out of the clouds' and 'bring yourself back to the ground'
Coz you won't know if she's what you want or if you're just tired of
Reality, insanity
But the lines are blurred so that you can't see
If you're independent or lonely
Tryna find a home or be homely
I don't know how to explain this feeling that pulls me in two different ways
Am I independent or lonely?
Tryna find a home or be homely?
Is there something better to be or am I holding myself back for free?
I pull myself away for the fear that I'd want you to stay
I pretend the most that I care the least
But wait for your words to validate me
And they say: practice what you preach
But it gets harder when you're so out of reach
So still that part of me keeps holding on to the fantasy of a rom com
And you don't have to tell me twice
Coz I've been told for my whole life
'Get your head back out of the clouds' and 'bring yourself back to the ground'
Coz you won't know if she's what you want or if you're just tired of
Reality, insanity
But the lines are blurred so that you can't see
If you're independent or lonely
Tryna find a home or be homely
I don't know how to explain this feeling that pulls me in two different ways
Am I independent or lonely?
Tryna find a home or be homely?
Is there something better to be or am I holding myself back for free?
Hey, do I need your love?
Or am I just feeling stuck in reality, or is it insanity?
Are my lines blurred so that I can't see
If I'm independent or lonely
Tryna find a home or be homely
I don't know how to explain this feeling that pulls me in two different ways
Ahh, ahh, ahh, ahh, ooh
Am I independent or lonely?
Tryna find a home or be homely?
I don't know how to explain this feeling that pulls me in two different ways
Am I independent or lonely?
Tryna find a home or be homely?
Is there something better to be or am I holding myself back for free?
Maybe I should try to see that I'm fine, with or without your company