It comes when it comes
My unlocked open book
Two years clean and sober Is just what it took
For it all to come haunt me From so long ago
Somehow all feels like yesterday though
I thought it would fade Images wouldn't last
Shouldn't it all go away After 13 years past
But for so many decades
My mind wasn't whole
It wasn't ready to process
These stories in full
Though it don't hurt the same
To rub an old wound with salt
It still shows me today
It was never my fault
It was never my fault
now that I'm loved
And have found the right help  
I think What other lies
Have I believed about myself
I needed permission to speak out to grow
My chance to forgive and learn to let go
Isn't this how I heal let someone else know
They are heard they are seen
That they're not alone
So much of my life I believed I was wrong  
But there's not a word I would change in these songs no
Turns out I'm not wrong  
I wish I knew way back then
That they call it assault
It was left in my hands
it was never my fault
Open the cage
Unlock the vault
Turns out
It was never my fault
My story to tell
No more I'll be fines
No vengeance or hate
Just a free state of mind
I wish I knew way back then
That they call it assault
It was left in my hands
it was never my fault
Open the cage
Unlock the vault
Turns out
It was never my fault