I never seem to succeed on the first try
Maybe it's me I'm lost and don't know why
Failure chases failure disappointment aligns
No answers are found no solutions in signs
I search for the flame but it won't light
I look for return but it's out of sight
I seek it again but it stays in the night
It's embarrassing it feels like I'm small
It's depressing and it darkens it all
It makes my heart heavy like a darkened hall
I always fail right from the start
Maybe it's me tearing apart
Hope chases hope faith follows near
There's an expectation but nothing is clear
I search for the depth but it's shallow instead
I climb for the peak but it stays in my head
I reach for the rain but the sky is dead
It's disappointing it's draining my core
It's frustrating and it hurts even more
It leaves my heart empty like it's been torn
I always fail before it begins
Maybe it's me trapped in my sins
Excuses chase excuses thoughts fill the air
There's no truth to hold no honor to share
I search for belief but it's lost in the haze
I reach for trust but it slips through the days
I seek out the star but it hides its rays
It's embarrassing it feels like a fall
It's depressing and it darkens it all
It makes my heart heavy like a darkened hall
I always fail before it's done
Maybe it's me with no place to run
Excuses pile up thoughts become blurred
No truth to be found no honor deferred
I search for a halo but it's far out of sight
I seek for God but He hides in the night
I look for the one but she's lost in flight
It's disappointing it empties the soul
It's frustrating and takes a heavy toll
It leaves my heart hollow like a darkened hole