I wake up everyday
I'm feelin' empty, feelin' all grey
My psychiatrist keeps sayin'
""Everything is gonna be okay""
I talked to my friends
They asked me, ""What happened with you?""
Sure, lemme tell you that
And what the fuck I've been through, sing
Long, long ago, I was no one, I wasn't this messed
And, no, no dont know, I dont know how could I be so depressed
'Cause people always tell me, ""You should stop being unhappy""
Goddamit, how the hell is that supposed to help me?
In other hand, I've never wanted to confess that I'm sad
'Cause I'm a clown and my job is to make people happy, you know that
I like to laugh, I like to make people laugh
But the problem is why I cannot do that to myself
All these feelings I consider as a time bomb cause it
(Gets worse)
Every day I have to make lies sure it ain't right
Better than die, or should I?
Shit, I'm done, trying so hard not to give a fuck
But I want to have fun
Like a lot of people, like a normal people
In other hand, I've never wanted to confess that I'm sad
'Cause I'm a clown and my job is to make people happy, you know that
I like to laugh, I like to make people laugh
But the problem is why I cannot do that to myself
So I wake up everyday
I'm feelin' better, feelin' not grey
My psychiatrist is saying
""Everything is finally okay""
I told all my friends I said
""I'm no longer feelin' blue""
And they believe it
They don't know it's a lie, they have no clue