I want to hear him say sorry
So I can tell him I don't forgive him
I'm aware that sounds cold, I'm aware it's unfeeling
But he has escaped and it's me who's left reeling and coming to terms

I want to stop feeling pathetic
I want to talk to my family and not break down
I need to have dreams that are more than just him
I need to shed light on this darkness within
Whilst i'm coming to terms

And, of course, that's dramatic
And, of course, I don't mean it
I'm angry because he's destroyed my routine
It's unreasonable, I know
And I'm terrible, I know
And he is not coming back, I know

I get to my door and I think there's no point
In going in when he's not there
Then I walk room to room and I stare at our bed
That is too big by half because he's fucking dead
AndI 'm left coming to terms

So it's anger, it's fury, it's all that I see
He's denied me the future he promised to me
People dare to walk by me with hope in their hearts
Their empty embraces, their smiles are a part
Of the screaming inside me that won't ever stop
Because I am so angry with him
for not being here
I can't forgive him for not being here
Actually, I'm fine, you know
I'm fine
And I'm out of time
I know
And he is not coming back
I know