Another day spent alone
crawl back to bed
to tune it out - static till i wake up again
oh, what a waste of my veins
an isolated event
i guess the counter's overdue for another reset
come home expecting a serotonin crash
it just took one bad exchange and im on my way to relapse
so with a shallow crevice, it's evident
im f-cking amazing at letting you down

if i clear my head
and beg for forgiveness
is that enough?
and i vow silence
does it make a difference
if no one knows?
i love you too much to tell you the truth
so when i draw my blade, there's nothing we can do
but "it'll be okay cause time heals all wounds"
and ill be good as new

when im waking up, i search for something new
feel like im giving up, tie a knot, hang the noose
i think im too f-cked up, can't decide what to do
a ticking time bomb you cannot defuse
So maybe I should [X] myself and go just end it all
Cause I can't heal my wounds depressed with adderall
Too many times, came close to watch my body fall
I close my eyes as I pick up your call
they tell me that i shouldn't jump
f-ck it honestly i've had it enough
hallucinating, I need your touch
Isolated, I feel no love
Feel my way through the darkness
I'm pulling out; keep my conscious
Level headed, still nauseous
I'll keep it a buck, I came back from
Signing a raincheck with Death in his office

if i clear my head
and beg for forgiveness
is that enough?
and i vow silence
does it make a difference
if no one knows?
i love you too much to tell you the truth
so when i draw my blade, there's nothing I can do
but "it'll be okay cause time heals all wounds"
and ill be good as new

i can't even see, turn the lights down
broken mirrors all around me, lookin at myself
pop another pill just for my pain now
shoot a bullet in my vein i blow my brains out
sick of always clinging to a savior
but this heart of mine has never learned to love itself
temporary solace in the razor’s edge
silent suffering, i don’t know how to ask for help
(and i don't know how to help myself)