(I try)
So damn hard for the world to see
(So hard)
To look for place that's a home for me
Any place that got love is where I wanna be
(I try)
So damn hard for the world to see
(So hard)
To look for place that's a home for me
Any place that got love is where I wanna be
So hard to look for the family crook
You can point and make a list from the family book
Spill the beans at a party while the family cook
Mean muggin all day that's the family look
But hey, I ain't here to pass the judgement on a brother
Especially one that came from the same exact mother
Half of y'all suckas, the others go for ducketts
I still drive the Honda and you call it a bucket
And back to the subject
I've learned that the effort
Is only worth the sweat that you put in for a second
Never stop grindin cause time will pass on
I've made whole albums you've made one song
So please, don't try to hit the Dougie to my notes
I don't dance to your trauma or the way that you cope
There's been tears in these bars I put my fear in these bars
While I'm being honest I felt near to the walls
Of my upper limits mind spinnin with no fidgets
I built enough skills but was scared to go get it
I paralyzed myself throwing block pity party's
I had to reach down and pull the dog out in Augie
My therapist recommends I make some amends
And forgive myself for trying so hard to pretend
That life was ok that my lungs had no pressure
That today is my day that I'm trying with all efforts
I'm on Gods way that I'm making hot records
That I'm cool as ACs that I got no temper
I fooled myself many and I fooled y'all many more
And by the grace of God I was given many doors
I often stumbled forward staggering from a blessing
I'm great cause of God and that's my biggest lesson
So with me
(I try)
Cause I was given a damn reason
Omission on the chiefin
Now I'm a lil older
And it's feelin like the season
Relax at the end while I clear my soul and mind
Now it comes easy and I don't have to try
(So hard)
(I try)
So damn hard for the world to see
(So hard)
To look for place that's a home for me
Any place that got love is where I wanna be
(I try)
So damn hard for the world to see
(So hard)
To look for place that's a home for me
Any place that got love is where I wanna be
Far from illiterate I read between the lines
Sometimes the closest ppl are haters in disguise
I don't want to be the messenger a word from the wise
They say the spreadin love but they love to spread the lies
I could be petty but what good does that bring
I learned to sit back and really try to think
Sometimes a shriveled flower blooms in the spring
It makes it kinda easy bringing flowers that can sing
Compliments were cringy and I'd get a little jealous
Them jokes about my character were getting overzealous
I couldn't care less to hang out with the careless
That's why I'm always careful hanging with the fellas
I don't feel good around the energy you brought
You'd get wife'd up and lose it all to a thot
Need yall to be men in the face of vacation
Not aligning with demons in the face of temptation
Yall trippin
Yall gambling with addiction
I know yall stumble cause I'm constantly kickin
Conviction with the pen but I never pass judgement
Got enough trials tryna be the best husband
The point of commitment if you got no patience
Engaged for 10 years why you keepin her waiting?
You say you getting ready but ain't puttin in the time
Ain't sitting with the mirror reflecting on your mind
You ain't throwin no hands with the hands of time
You flip the hour glass once the sand is declined
Marriage ain't easy you better be ready
But year after year we see the confetti
Day after day we see how the petty
Gets more serious this Armageddon
(I try)
So damn hard for the world to see
(So hard)
To look for place that's a home for me
Any place that got love is where I wanna be
(I try)
So damn hard for the world to see
(So hard)
To look for place that's a home for me
Any place that got love is where I wanna be