Life present me with no situation, I ain't choose or run
They ask me 4LEXAN, where you been, you ain't doing none
My baby said I'm proud of this new person that you become
Just working hard to provide for the two of us
I got evicted from my own family, this ain't new to some
Leave my girl stranded at the crib to get my money up
She crying, I ain't see you like that in six hours, love
Some real shit that's been difficult to overcome
I ain't seen you in four days now
My money put on a couple pounds
But is it worth the consequences of putting me down
And now it's feeling like I've been dragging you around
This ain't it, this life ain't never been perfect
I've been getting hands-on with my problems like a surgeon
Been presenting different lessons, but I guess I ain't learning
This ain't new to me, I ain't a virgin to these versions or verses
So what do I do from here
I made it this far from the praises and the cheers
And I ain't get a congrats, I guess I'm living in my fears
I ain't feel victory in my choices, but I was intrigued by the year
Like, when was the last time I really seen my peers
Sophomore year, I remember the OGs in the class with mister Pearce
Like, precious, I ain't never had the fear to show my fears
One day we gon' sit back, sip a drink, and say cheers
Yeah, it's all good, baby, I'ma stay here
You act like I ain't been going through this shit for eight years
Say that you ain't tryna get close to me, but you came near
Mama told me ever since a youngin' I had to face my fears
I thought you was gon' be here, but then you disappeared
But baby, it's okay, I finally get it, I finally see it clear
Looked at G when he got shot, I knew it was severe
And I ain't do nothing to help him, now I can't even look in the mirror
I still miss him, though