I wake up every morning with my head up in a daze
I'm not sure if I should say this fuck I'll say it anyway
Everybody tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
I don't know if it's a phase I just wanna feel okay yeah
I battle with depression but the question still remains
Is this post-traumatic stressing or am I suppressing rage?
And my doctor tries to tell me that I'm going through a phase
Yeah it's not a fucking phase I just wanna feel okay okay?
Yeah I struggle with this bullshit every day
And it's probably 'cause my demons simultaneously rage
It obliterates me disintegrates me annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular popular monster
I break down falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular popular monster
I think I'm going nowhere like a rat trapped in a maze
Every wall that I knock down is just a wall that I replace
I'm in a race against myself I try to keep a steady pace
How the fuck will I escape if I never close my case?
Oh my God I keep on stressing every second that I waste
Is another second sooner to a blessing I won't take
But my therapist will tell me that I'm going through a stage
Yeah it's not a fucking stage I just wanna feel okay okay
Motherfucker now you got my attention
I need to change a couple things 'cause something is missing
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine
Every single fucking day I get closer to the grave I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me disintegrates me annihilates me
'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular popular monster
I break down falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular popular fucking monster

Yeah here we go again motherfucker oh
We're sick and tired of wondering
Praying to a god that you don't believe
We're searching for the truth in the lost and found
So the question I ask is
Oh where the fuck is your god now?

We're sick and tired of wondering
And what if I were to lie? Tell you everything is fine

'Cause I'm about to break down I'm searching for a way out
I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular popular monster
I break down falling into love now with falling apart
I'm a popular popular monster

I'm a liar I'm a cheater I'm a non-believer
I'm a popular popular monster

I am terrified
I fell asleep at the wheel again
Crashed my car just to feel again
It obliterates me disintegrates me
I'm a popular popular monster