Yeah, it's that old school feeling
Made it this far and I'm still here dreaming
I remember all those nights
Sat under the lights
Writin' to my hearts delight
Those were my youth days
This is not a phase
They sayin' I switch ways
They don't know my minds a maze
I can't have no off days
They filling me with praise
I ask the label for a raise
They look at me with haze
I tell 'em, check the account, check the amount
They tell me stack money like I'm on top of a mount
I tell 'em I'm not cookin' that kind of bread
They looked me in the eyes and this is what they said
We'll give you a raise, but you better work for it
Don't spend it on percs, 'cause you ain't deserving it
So I hit the liquor store
Go ahead and cop one more
Drinkin' till my throat is sore
Lot of damage to my core
Shop keeper kicks me out
Now my heart is trippin' out
Throw it all up before I pass out
Get in the car and hit the gas now
Drive real quick before they shoot the glass out
So I hit the highway
I'm doin' 90 on a 60
Cops tryna pull me over
I'm just tryna get free
I'm swervin' left and right
Tryna get out of sight
Fuck the speed limit
It's either I drive or I die
As I'm driving, cop bumps into my car
Throw my head to the wheel now I got a fuckin' scar
He bumps it again
Now my head is filled with pain
He gives it another try and I throw my teeth to the sky
He gets out of his car
Doesn't have to run that far
I'm tryna get up, but in my head I'm seeing stars
I start to make a run
Reach in my pocket for a gun
He shoots me once
My body goes down in a slump
Hole in my chest
The bullet sat there in a nest
My mind is racing, tryna not get stressed
He pulls me in, going for the arrest
I know it's game over, in my mind I feel a mess
Yeah
You know, I stopped drinking in 2021
I was nearly addicted to the drink
But I quit, and lifes been better since
But I often think about relapsing
And I think about the taste of a drink in my mouth
And I think, if I relapsed, how would everything change