Uh, she just told me, tell me how it goes
I don't tell her, demons getting close
Getting harder, fighting with my thoughts
Do I leave it, do I let her know
I been working when I go to sleep
Paid in full, but yo, it's never cheap
I been fighting, fighting with my thoughts
Do I leave it, do I let her know
Yo, like where we going? I say it's far
She wanna trust it, but she's messing with a superstar
You know it's crazy when her competition gotta know me
And see them crushing on her man, is he gonna fold?
Doing shows, but how this high life lives is lonely
I used to know this, I'm sleeping later hours
And hoping she'll never notice
She's talking about her day and I'm struggling giving focus
Ask about her opinion, she could be hating my opus
I'm learning not to accept it, a couple things on my shoulders
Know my ting is to walk, but I couldn't be like my olders
I know I'm setting a path, it's a part of breaking the cycle
Could be less of a man, but I put my word on the bible but
Yeah, I know I know she's right
Yo, she don't want the money, but she told me stay the night
But if I stayed, then all my goals are fighting with my sleep
She wanna trust it, but it's playing in her thoughts saying
She just told me, tell me how it goes
I don't tell her, demons getting close
Getting harder fighting with my thoughts
Do I leave it, do I let it, no
I've been working when I go to sleep
Paid in full, but yo, it's never cheap
I've been fighting, fighting with my thoughts
Do I leave it, do I let her know
I know it's crazy when I shut her out from issues in my head
We should be talking about it, but see I'm so unprepared
Like what's the point in addressing issues I know she'll struggle to fix
You'll say I'm being selfish, she's trying to be in the mix
Cause she just wanna help, but me I've never seen it for myself
Should be feeling these feelings, but put the feels on the shelf
Cause I know the way that they play me, but me I'm trying to survive
Know I write on my phone, but it's silent quarter to five
And yes I know she's trying
I wanna help, but see my problems only multiplying
I see my people getting killed there's all these thoughts of dying
Now I'm thinking if I leave, then how do I provide this poker on my face
Just know it's burning in my thoughts for days
I'm in my thoughts now
If I never talk, then she think I wanna divorce now
I don't wanna talk, so I make it harder to see me
Said it's only trust, but this trust is never as easy as
She just told me, tell me how it goes
I don't tell her demons getting close
Getting harder fighting with my thoughts
Do I leave it, do I let her know