Writing this letter, I've been thinking of where to begin

In and out and I'll breathe in the oxygen
In and out, yeah I'll start thinking for myself again

Anxiety, drips over and under me but I can't breathe
Will I be alright? Or will this be the reason I can't sleep at night?

I just keep fighting it's all I have
I've got this feeling, that it won't be enough again

I'll write these letters, addressed to the past
I know you won't read them but it's the way these things last
And we can sleep in the shade, bask in the glory of a rainy parade

I swear I'll try and never let you down
But still you've got me all figured out
I'll fade away, you'll stare through me A well composed transparency

I just keep fighting it's all I have
I've got this feeling, that it won't be enough again

Cause i'm a crystal bouquet, yeah I'm a gift to behold
But you just can't be bothered, no; you're more into gold
And I can't make up for all the things that I lack
So I'll just have to figure it out

In and out and I'll breathe in the oxygen
In and out, yeah I'll start thinking for myself again

Anxiety, drips over and under me but I can't breathe
Will I be alright? Or will this be the reason I can't sleep at night?

So just let go, I swear I might
I'm sick of the words I can't seem to get right
This hollow example of what I'll never be
A well composed transparency