I take a look at the mirror and I’m screwed up
I go for a night out and I’m dumb out of luck
I can’t even figure out who the hell I am
Lookin’ at myself I can’t understand
I live day by day but it’s all the same
Everything’s blurry, it’s drivin’ me insane
I’m in everlasin’ trouble, I got everlastin’ pain
I’m always in a rain, I’m always drained
Saturday, hit the clubs, tryna find the right spot
Take a glass, drink it down, I really drink a lot
Walk around, drunk as hell, I’m lost in thought
Keep my emotions inside, it’s just how I was taught
I’m like a detective trying to find his own soul
Everybody out to get me, head’s down as I stroll
Through crowds of the night as they party off life
I’m walking around with fright, trying to see with blurry sight
While the negative thoughts float around in my head
Providin’ me so much pain, might as well be dead
I’m still livin’, I don’t know why god is given’
Me second chances, I don’t deserve to be forgiven
I’m just a soul whose intentions are good
Always misunderstood cause my condition is viewed
As a disgrace to mankind, always tryin’ to save face
Just to be in god’s embrace but it’s never the case
I take a look at the mirror and I’m screwed up
I go for a night out and I’m dumb out of luck
I can’t even figure out who the hell I am
Lookin’ at myself I can’t understand
I live day by day but it’s all the same
Everything’s blurry, it’s drivin’ me insane
I’m in everlasin’ trouble, I got everlastin’ pain
I’m always in a rain, I’m always drained
They say my pain is self-inflicted
When my family’s sadistic, what can you do?
When people walk over you like yesterday’s news
I’m always down, yeah I think I’ve got the blues
That’s why you always see me in the ditch
I’m trying to find my purpose, feel like I don’t exist
My mindstate is unstable, feels like I’m out of phase
I’m not like most people, I’m not afraid
To take a blunt or two just to ease the stress
I can never be normal because my mind’s a mess
I never blamed anyone else except myself
For my state of mental health, I can never quelch
The beef that I create, the flaws that make me irate
I keep makin’ friends, losin’ them, that ain’t great
I need stability in my life but I can’t find it
I’m so attracted to fame, might as well be blinded
I take a look at the mirror and I’m screwed up
I go for a night out and I’m dumb out of luck
I can’t even figure out who the hell I am
Lookin’ at myself I can’t understand
I live day by day but it’s all the same
Everything’s blurry, it’s drivin’ me insane
I’m in everlasin’ trouble, I got everlastin’ pain
I’m always in a rain, I’m always drained
I take a look at the mirror and I’m screwed up
I go for a night out and I’m dumb out of luck
I can’t even figure out who the hell I am
Lookin’ at myself I can’t understand
I live day by day but it’s all the same
Everything’s blurry, it’s drivin’ me insane
I’m in everlasin’ trouble, I got everlastin’ pain
I’m always in a rain, I’m always drained