Is it the time to take the blame
Or try and keep you in the game
With false reaction, no attraction
Take some pills and walk away

You’re feeling secretly denied
No one’s remaining by your side
Whispers crashing, you feel like smashing
Your face against the floor again

Don’t know how many moods you’ve faked
But how much more is there to take
And no distraction, no direction
There’s just nowhere left to go

“And it hurts so bad
It’s a life I never wanted!
Under the golden layers, concealed from you to see
’Cause it hurts so bad
It’s a life I never wanted!
I never wanted it to end (like this)”

Tired of losing anyway
It never matters what you say
And all rejection and disconnection
It doesn’t even make it worse

For now all morbid fear is gone
The fighting ends, you accept they’ve won
And all the pressure and all displeasure
Leaves you here in your own void

“And it hurts so bad
It’s a life I never wanted!
Under the golden layers, concealed from you to see
’Cause it hurts so bad
It’s a life I never wanted!
I never wanted it to end (like this)”