I was an unanswerable mess
Drunk on the house red
Pushing all buttons that I could get
My bitter hands upon
Masochistic kisses
All these irrational wishes
I wish I'd known what I know now
Fathers would flock to the soles of my feet
Latching on to some false sense of maturity
They thought I was better
But while the South was burning
I spent a decade learning
How to be thinner and shallow and bold
Oh, here I am eating my words
Hyperaware of all that I've hurt
Can you forgive me love
I was just foolish and young
So intent on growing up
I don't have adequate well-crafted excuses
For wasting the best years of my life
All that you have to say
Accusations thrown my way
I deserve every one
I made no attempt to right my wrongs
Left it up to you
To air the dirty laundry
Do the dirty work
Pick up after my whirlwind childhood
Watched a life pass uneventfully
Rushed through sentimental memories
And now I'm not sure where I am
Not sure how I came to be
Must have got a bit detached
Learning every day to just be
I'm not sure where I am
Not sure how I came to be
Must have got a bit detached
Learning every day to just be
I was an unanswerable mess
Drunk on the house red