I will never make something beautiful
I've tried
I've tried so hard and for what?
The river has run through me
And it doesn't feel real
I've poured in all my heart
But we don't care what your heart feels
There's only one thing I ever wanted
And I'm bad at it
You can't live on good intentions
You can't give off good intentions when you feel like shit
Part of growing up is getting kicked in the gut
But I feel like I've grown up enough
And I keep addressing you
As if you were here
But the truth is
I make music for no one to hear
Why fear it?
It's inevitable
This screeching noise
Isn't beautiful
My horrid voice
Isn't beautiful
The words of choice
They aren't beautiful
Who I am
Isn't beautiful
When I fall out of time
It isn't beautiful
When we've lost the sublime
And when I cut off my nose and legs
And when I die an ugly death
It won't be beautiful