A forbidden fruit that tasted like euphoric situations
I found myself delusional and chasing complications I should've never wanted you but shit got
kinda twisted
Fed my soul in all the ways that didn't need commitment
Now I'm fighting demons from the bullshit that we had
But this time it's feeling different cause this shit is in the past
The stresses that you gave me made me lose my fucking sleep
Every single night on fucking Instagram discrete
Turning off alerts to keep it all down on the low
Until that very day that we done linked up at your home
A lot of nothing happened but I'm telling it today
How can I pretend you're not the woman that I hate?
I didn't miss her on the day you leaned in
But it's a blessing for your life that you got to know my skin
I was riding way too deep cause when I jump I dive in
And you were on that nonsense like your bitch ass little twin
His tiny dick is such a joke and he knows that too And so do your friends cause you're fucking the crew
You keep fucking all your exes cause there's nothing else to you
Emotions been on zero cause you're nothing to lose
And it's time to move on
I don't really care, I'm leaving all this in a song
I remember my tears and the way you laughed
And all the times we shared will slowly fade away to black
It was September 5th at 4am
Before you kissed me in the dark
I was lied to from the start you annoy my heart
Now you annoy my heart
It was September 5th at 4am
Before you kissed me in the dark
I was lied to from the start you annoy my heart
Now you annoy my heart
If I'm being really honest there's a part of me that knew
That you didn't really mean it it's just something to prove
You knew how to manipulate, you knew the right shit to say
To get me in my feels about your stupid ass face
And now I'm sitting in the light that I haven't seen
in years
While all those stupid fucking memories will surely disappear
And this should've never happened but the thing is that it did
And I don't know how to go heal from this
Yeah I don't know how to go heal from this
You were out out with him I should've never been involved
I should've taken steps back to avoid the fucking fall
Should've never shown an interest cause I couldn't be a friend
After everything we did I could not just play pretend
Cause you know how it is when emotions become mixed
Like a drug with deep hits and I was fiending for a fix
I felt like Rue from euphoria my heart done went through just enough
You got the attitude of Maddy but I knew it was
All in my head and all in my heart since that day back in September
When we both played a part yes we both crossed the line
But you do that all the time and I gave in to the highs with a splash of all the lies
And I did it really effortless I guess that kinda scared me
Ever since you kissed me I've been acting pretty carefree
I could never go back that flight already took off
I know your life's redundant like a broken record's theme song
Everyone around me is starting to suspect
That maybe there's a chance I didn't see you as a friend
A part of me just wants to fucking scream it to the world
But you don't deserve my love bitch you will never be my girl
It was September 5th at 4am
Before you kissed me in the dark
I was lied to from the start you annoy my heart
Now you annoy my heart
It was September 5th at 4am
Before you kissed me in the dark
I was lied to from the start you annoy my heart
Now you annoy my heart