I mean, I've been wanting to say
That even tho I'm missing you lately
I'm doing so much better, it's crazy
Been taking my pills, got over that fear
Healing and growing, forgiving and shit
So far so good tho I wish it was easy
Finding my peace and losing somebody
I apologize if along the way I hurt anybody
That wasn't intended I'm just bad at goodbyes
Hate when you come around
Just to say
Life gets good
Once you get over it
Come around (come around)
Just to say (just to say)
Forget it all
You're worth of love, baby
Never said "I'm sorry" for the way that my heart works
Overly protective, still afraid of deep waters
Afraid of deep waters
Breathless,
Against current,
Still swimming
Swimming
Swimming
And maybe it's all my baggage
That makes me hard to manage, yea yea
Maybe it's all the parts I've played
Maybe it's all the things I said
Maybe I read into things too much
Maybe I should give less fucks
Maybe I should call my mom,
My sister, my dad, they went through so much
So far so good tho I wish they were honest
I know that I hurt them, I know what I caused and
Wish there was a way to take their pain away from them
Cause nothing is worse than being a burden
Hate when you come around
Just to say
Life gets good
Once you get over it
Come around (come around)
Just to say (just to say)
Forget it all
You're worth of love, baby
Never said "I'm sorry" for the way that my heart works
Overly protective, still afraid of deep waters
Afraid of deep waters
Breathless,
Against current,
Still swimming
Swimming
Swimming
Cause fuck it I'm sensitive,
Maybe a little bit,
Might be a lil' rash,
That's why I fall apart
In the past I wasn't
Handled carefully
So please be cautions with me
Because I might just break
Because I might just break
I feel like without hard life experiences or
Having a revolving door of
Bad or toxic people who come and go in your life
Like without that
You wouldn't have anything to write or make music about
It's like, being surrounded by toxic people
Or partners
Eventually becomes exciting
It's like it makes that creative part of
Your brain click and it's this constant cycle of seeking out bad people whether it's intentional or not
In return to fuel your music or songwriting
So in a way these past people
Who used to be in your life could turn into
Something beautiful
I don't know, it's just interesting to me