I really thought
You wouldn't break my heart
You just had that look to you
it was dark I could see someones TV behind venetian blinds,
your nose ring in that glimmering light of Storms and Saints always reminds me
of you
It's the flaws I remember, arcades and Twin Peaks and the thing you said to me in the car
driving through Japan I guess four years now have passed
I've loved men before and I loved men after

I really thought
you were a light in the dark
golden curls and 70s clothes when we kissed we were standing in old book stores
I had barely just met you
and you walked me through the colorful streets
eating melon in the park I was reading, you were sleeping
I was dreaming of the future we could have
It's these days I remember the gigs and the moon and the hill I'd walk everyday just thinking of you
the friends and the bars and that red vintage suit you took off of me laying on top of you
It's the ice cubes, the one fork you had at your house,
the bus to New York the nights out on town
I never thought anyone would bring that kind of laughter
but I loved men before and I loved men after

I kinda knew
you looked like bad news
I called you trouble
we both saw double
you tried to tell me the truth
I shushed you with a kiss
I don't need to know I whispered
my lips on your neck
you said I was driving you crazy
laughing dangerously
I dove straight for the eye of the storm
but all I remember is
My flask and the ex, the kinda underwhelming sex, the revenge that I want, the friend that I lost, the nights smoking weed when the delivery guy got lost
The bar brawl the fact that you didn't know who Nick Cave was and that it was an iconic comeback you wannabe rockstar
I love you so much
but I've loved men before and I will love men after you

after you
You won't be the last man I loved
You won't be the last man I loved"