Now that i'm older i get it, i'm finally understanding your pain
I'm finally understanding your ways, i'm finally giving you your space
I wait for this shit to be over, was born in this life just so i could find an escape
I'm tryna get sober i meant it, but you still won't believe a damn thing that i say
Funny how messages always interpreted as something with ill intent
I'm like why the fuck you wanna question me bitch, you not the only one that's been going through hell
Made me feel lesser than, tryna be the bigger man, so i'm ignoring you
Even though you have been threatening me, i still told you it was cool
Yeah, got blood on my index
Got your blood up on my index, finger
You no angel, that's in plain view
Told you my pain but it, just entertains you
My mental state soon, will have no saved room
I tried to save you, look what it's came to
Trying to search for the root of the problem, i guess i gotta go and pull out the index
Know that we both had to start from the bottom, we argued back and forth we both were defensive
Breaking apart so we could start to blossom, i turned to a flower and you gained resentment
I think all my trauma i told you forgotten, like that's exactly why i never be venting
You'll never understand why i was homesick
You selfish too but the difference is that i show it
You just want me broken, i figured that's your motive
Our arguments explosive, girl that shit made me hopeless
Back to the index again, back to the index my friend
Hope that you soon get what I said, cause all the assumptions been dead
Then you stab that knife through my neck, then proceed to slice through my chest
Girl neither of us were correct, so why do you pray for my end
You'll never get it, something that i have accepted
You know that we both been projecting, and that's cause we both been neglected
We both were rejecting our trust, and that was infecting our love
And that was reflecting on us, so i'm tryna move on i'm done
A to z, searching for the answers please, please just let me be
Flipping through these fucking pages, tryna find a time and then a place
Hate how you were implicating that all of my love for you wasn't the same