Sit down for a second and let me just
Tell you the hell that I'm in at the moment
I do what I can to avoid looking weak
But I'm falling apart and you don't even know it
I told you I'm fine and that I'll be okay
But inside I'm a mess, and I try not to show it
But I'm at the end of my rope and
I'm sick of just lying when you ask me how life is going
I don't really wanna be here
You tell me have faith, but it's insincere
When I need your help, you just disappear
But you come right back when you need my ear
So I don't really wanna talk now
It's a bit too late, you can shut your mouth
And I'm on my way, you can sit back down
It's a one way ticket, and I'm homeward bound
The devil is trying to rile me up
But instead he's just pissing me off
And I'm telling you I'm not the person you want on my bad side
And I've given enough
Of my time and my energy, homie it's therapy
Tear you to pieces, you're thinkin' ya tough
But the moment you come for my family
You made it personal, Satan I'm calling your bluff
You wanna come after me
Then man up and do it yourself
You think that because I'm a little depressed
You have some kind of stranglehold over my health
But you're just a chump, and everyone knows it
So might as well start getting used to the L
Cause you knocked me down, but I'm getting back up
And I'm sending you first class back to hell
I'm tired and angry, I'm done with debating
My patience has very much started degrading
I'm making a statement, I'm tired of faking
Is that all you got, cause I'm patiently waiting
You must be mistaken, you thought I was shaken
But I'm on my feet and the beast has awakened
I'm done with evading, I'm coming to break
Every negative thought cause I'm done being jaded
I'm done with the hatred, I honestly I hate it
It's kind of ironic, but true when I say it
I know I'm creative, and destined for greater
Than anything I could have ever created

Yeah, and I don't wanna live another day like this
Feeling like I'm all alone and that I don't exist
Sometimes I let it get to me, I must admit
But I gotta learn to let it go and self-forgive
Jesus I'm not perfect, but I'm doing my best
And I know that you got my back no matter what comes next

The devil wanna see on my knees in pain
But here's the kicker, cause he got me on my knees in praise
I know I'm broken, know I'm chosen, and it's all a phase
He thought he buried me, but Jesus brought me out the grave
The old me is dead, and the new me is flawed
But I'm trying my hardest to grow
There's only so much I can do
I'm a human, I know can't do it alone
This song is a window inside of my head
I feel fine, but at moments I don't
I gotta continue to learn it's okay to be solemn
I'm not on my own
This is me, like it or love it I don't really care
We all agree, life is a struggle you better beware
Edge of your seat, the enemy feeds off a need to compare
It's all a scheme, eyes up above and you'll never be scared
It's not dream, it's time to wake up and it's time to prepare
On God I'm free, I'm going to war, I got nothing to fear

Yeah, and I don't wanna live another day like this
Feeling like I'm all alone and that I don't exist
Sometimes I let it get to me, I must admit
But I gotta learn to let it go and self-forgive
Jesus I'm not perfect, but I'm doing my best
And I know that you got my back no matter what comes next