I've only ever felt beauty
When I starved myself
But I didn't know love at all
And I've only felt pain
When I've purged my sins
And it was overflow
And I fought
And I've lost
And I fought
And I've won
And each day brings a new battle
And these scars on my heart
Shine like golden stars tonight
Went to bed dreaming of heaven
But I woke up in hell
All I hear is a siren call
If there's no one to save me
I guess I'll save myself
If I'm even worth saving at all
Cause I fought
And I've lost
And I've won
And each day brings a new battle
And these scars on my heart
Shine like golden stars tonight
Behind this disguise is
A dark secret that no one knows
Keep trying to fight it
I'm still spinning out of control
And I'm afraid it's starting to show
Only felt heard
When you put your words
In my mouth
Telling me I'll be ok
When you turn around
I spit them all out
Cause you don't hear me when I say
Behind this disguise is
A dark secret that no one knows
Keep trying to fight it
I'm still spinning out of control
And I'm afraid it's starting to show
And I'm afraid it's starting to show
I fought
And I've lost
But it came
At a cost
Cause I'm worse than I was before
I fought
And I lost
But it came
At a cost
Dripping on the bathroom floor
Behind this disguise is
A dark secret that no one knows
Keep trying to fight it
I'm still spinning out of control
And I'm afraid it's starting to show
I've only ever felt beauty
When I starved myself
But I didn't know love at all