It's hurting
These words that I'm dropping
I'm kinda reloaded
These thoughts got me tripping
It's kinda gross
Deceived you
I know that it's not true
You're all I view
It's all I knew
Yeah I'm an asshole
Some kind of asshole
These mechanics that I built
Are greater weapons for my guilt
I shoot and control what I can control
I'm the baddest in my mind
When I am losing all the time
I'm getting dumber every time
I'm getting colder every
Time and time again
I lose a friend
Mental overbend
The story ends
I've sunk in my past
Told some lies to be wiser
Than anyone who's been telling me
How it's fucked up to go heavy on you
Well I did
And I tainted your light
When there was trust from you
Hate myself for hurting you this way
You're frozen
A storm got me spinning
I'm gonna
Regret it reverse it
And forget what kind of man
Would hurt you
No wonder you shatter the way you do
It's all I do
No recollection no pride no anthem
This parade is for the bravest of the hearts that did you wrong
No search will help find
I played with the line
To remain into the abyss
Is a vengeful piece of mine
It's gotten somber in my mind
It's been a tougher game of
Mindful of defeat
No sweet release
Facing off the heat
Time to retreat
I've sunk in my past
Told some lies to be wiser
Than anyone who's been telling me
How it's fucked up to go heavy on you
Well I did
And I tainted your light
When there was trust from you
Hate myself for hurting you this way
I'm crying to the moon
'Cause I was wrong