Good morning buddy!
I and Mom and Dad and um
Everyone who gets to know you loves you
You did something extremely hard but also extremely right and caring
And I love you
I haven't been doing well
I'm not going to Heaven
I'm already in Hell
Maybe it's a cry for help
Maybe I've been too alone
Maybe it's just that I miss you and after three months, I need you to know
You could be less beautiful
You could have less charm
You could tell less jokes (it's fewer, I know)
You could talk less smart
Yeah we could've fought more
This couldn't be more hard
When I pulled the trigger
I left a hole in two hearts
I tried to let you hold the pain I keep in
Two years of an afterlife
They all say what an angel she is
Fingers wrapped around yours
I always knew I was holding the wind
I know that there's no going back
But know I would do it all over again
All my life I gave to you, that's what I did it for
All my life I gave to you, that's what I did it for
Now I have to go and find out what I'm meant for
Now I have to go
What do I do it for?
Do it for my Mom, do it for my Dad, do it for Sophia
For my Grandmas and my Grandpa
I'm happy that you got to meet 'em
For Madi, for Libby, for Hannah
Thank you I was never alone
I do it for Jules, I do it for Esa and everyone from home
Do it for Amina, Ava, Berzan
For all their souls I keep
Keep doing this shit for Elijah
This the fourth this week
Reminding myself to commit to my life
This isn't a plan B
I'm going for Zac, I'm going for Kevin, man this shit's real family
And I'll keep on for the thought of you
Even if it's all I have
I'm reliving what you taught me
It's okay that I'm sad
So I'll live for December
Even if she's not real
In some world she is
In a home without tears
All my life I gave to you, that's what I did it for
All my life I gave to you, that's what I did it for
Now I have to go
Even if there's nothing left