I know forgiveness ain't easy (Yuh yuh yuh)
But I feel like I gotta hate myself to break myself (Yuh yuh yuh)
You feel me? (Yuh yuh yuh)
Yuh
God I'm sorry I hated them (I hated 'em)
I know they my family but I'm not okay with them
Been 7 years and I know you still breaking them
They did me bad but I'm still gonna pray for them
Wish 'em the best (I wish 'em the best)
But I keep my distance I won't go and fake with them
Left me alone but I know you replacing them
God please reconsider resaving them
Every step that I took I would fall through (Fall through)
Now I'm running like look at what God do (Like look)
God I swear I wish I had called you (I wish)
But my life wasn't letting that call through (It wasn't)
Now I'm stuck in my head, a daze (A daze)
I could've been dead, erased (Erased)
Gotta take me two meds a day (Okay)
I get it I said okay (Like what?)
Life ain't fair, no
And it feels like a white man's game
And I'm stuck in the right hand lane
And I pray for my life and brain
Green light don't mean go
Stabbed me no knife, in vain
So I gotta fight in pain
Got me to brighter days
I'm happy now, got me sitting real pretty
Sent them away they ain't messing with me
Heart turned to stone ain't talking bout kidneys
Fairytales? life ain't never gave Disney
I'm just tryna heal my heart want forgiveness right now
I'm just tryna heal my heart need forgiveness right now
I'm sorry I hated them (Sorry I hated)
Sorry I hated them (Sorry for hating)
God, I'm sorry I hated them (Sorry I hated)
I'm sorry I hated them (Sorry for hating)
Sorry I hated them (Sorry I hated)
I'm sorry I hated them (Sorry for hating)
God, I'm sorry I hated them (Sorry I hated)
I'm sorry I hated them (Sorry for hating)
God I'm sorry I hated them (I hated 'em)
I know they my family but I'm not okay with them
Been 7 years and I know you still breaking them
They did me bad but I'm still gonna pray for them
Wish 'em the best (I wish 'em the best)
But I keep my distance I won't go and fake with them
Left me alone but I know you replacing them
God please reconsider resaving them
I'm sorry I hated them, what could I do?
The way that they did me, they used and abused
They seen my heart and broke it, misused
I wanna torture the sh*t I can't rule
Look up to god, I ask for forgiveness
I swear that I'm changing, but I keep my distance
The Lord is my savior but I'm not a Christian
I got the wishes that can't be granted
I'm so hurt feel like I'm abandoned
Who do I call when I'm feeling stranded?
Don't wanna love cause it only bring damage
Can't hide all my pain gotta take off the bandage
Wrap it up with a band aid
I'm too tough, man I'm too brave
Some days I be in a cage
See my body laying in a grave
God told me "Nina don't stop,
With my guidance you'll go far
Don't I know they broke yo heart
Broken hearts always break hearts
Look at the sky, you see them stars?
Look at the world, you seem them cars?
Look at the jail, you see them bars?
Now which one gon have yo heart?"
They gon tell you to go through it but don't do it, they don't know no better
They don't got nobody that is solid, they go through whatever
I was hatin motherf*ckers by the hour
They like "Don you got the power, say it loud, all this sh*t you gon devour"
God I'm sorry I hated them (I hated 'em)
I know they my family but I'm not okay with them
Been 7 years and I know you still breaking them
They did me bad but I'm still gonna pray for them
Wish 'em the best (I wish 'em the best)
But I keep my distance I won't go and fake with them
Left me alone but I know you replacing them
God please reconsider resaving them
God I'm sorry I hated them (I hated 'em)
I know they my family but I'm not okay with them
Been 7 years and I know you still breaking them
They did me bad but I'm still gonna pray for them
Wish 'em the best (I wish 'em the best)
But I keep my distance I won't go and fake with them
Left me alone but I know you replacing them
God please reconsider resaving them