(no way!) [soupandreas]

i can't shake what's coming over me
i'll change the past, and set the future free
my head is heavy from the weight i carry all the time
if i stumble, i'll burn up in the sunlight

[musa]
frozen, my eyes bloodshot,
while i’m just staring at my phone, and insomnia's hard to beat
when i stay all alone in my bed, it’s a curse to wake up tired and averse
to sleeping with another ghost above me
and i know that it's all on me,
to pave the way because i promised i would see it through with everyone i cherished
through the fear i'd be embarrassed,
in the face of my defeat,
i find a way to pull it off, it’s bittersweet

leap of faith i’ll take away the pain i bring myself these days
i’m doing better than i thought i did
cause all i wanted was some sympathy
from those done wrong to me
thought they were enemies of the goal i seek to claim

i'm not phased by the way they judge my look & my voice
and honestly i hold ground, i just go stick to my poise
and to everyone around that stuck from beginnings,
giving up's just like sinning when they rely on you
yeah i'm cold by a fireplace
don't understand just what is wrong and why i'm awake
it's evident what makes me this way
i'll just find my own place to go escape
my eyes glued to a screen!

frozen, my eyes bloodshot,
while i’m just staring at my phone, and insomnia's hard to beat
when i stay all alone in my bed, it’s a curse to wake up tired and averse
to sleeping with another ghost above me
and i know that it's all on me,
to pave the way because i promised i would see it through with everyone i cherished
through the fear i'd be embarrassed,
in the face of my defeat,
i find a way to pull it off, it’s bittersweet

growing up i had bad definitions of love
cooped up in a basement i ain't get no sun!
front-flip to the ground! i just break my skull again
will i ever repair myself?
some days the only goal is getting out of bed
up next, in a sense, but can never impress
oh how the mighty fall, i'm just living dead i guess
will i ever repair myself?

frozen, my eyes bloodshot,
while i’m just staring at my phone, and insomnia's hard to beat
when i stay all alone in my bed, it’s a curse to wake up tired and averse
to sleeping with another ghost above me
and i know that it's all on me,
to pave the way because i promised i would see it through with everyone i cherished
through the fear i'd be embarrassed,
in the face of my defeat,
i find a way to pull it off, it’s bittersweet

(musa + soupandreas)
leap of faith i’ll take away the pain i bring myself these days
i’m doing better than i thought i did
cause all i wanted was some sympathy
from those done wrong to me
thought they were enemies of the goal i seek to claim