For my brothers that I lost
Lighter in the sky
I promise not to cry
Imma ball for you
Ball for you
Brothers that I lost
Be strong
Imma ball for you
Ball for you
Imma tell you bout the shit that I just can't hide
It's been a minute since I spoke about when Clark died
Listen up and you gonna hear about my past life
I done shed so much tears that now I can't cry
I shed so much tears that now my hearts fried
And when life got peak I had a dark side
I couldn't let people in they didn't ask why
Or when they did I tell a lie like nah my hearts fine
Imma ball for you bro
Died way before your time and now it's mine
I'll do it all for you bro
Sell out shows I'll go on tour for you bro
And every dream you ever had I'll make sure to have them all for you bro
Wish I could talk to you bro
Wish I could play you all my shit
Introduce you to Mülla
Cah you ain't knew about the kid
You ain't knew that I could rap
And you ain't knew that I could sing
And it was peak the way you dropped out
Me I knew you as a king
It got me thinking
I was anti women for while
She killed you and they knew but she ain't even get a trial
Shit she weren't even a suspect
But she was white so nuff said
They just wrote it up as suicide
Said charge it but my brothers dead I can't charge that
What did they expect man I wish I could get my heart back
Sick of shedding tears now I can't I can't even start that
I just want my brother man I swear I just want Clark back
I just want my brother man I swear I just want
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They tell me big bros in a better place
But I'm in a worse place
He shouldn't have to die at 22 in the first place
And every year really hits in the worst way
I buried bro just a week before my birthday
So don't talk about a party or a present
I got scars on my heart that never heal and it's depressing
But true say that's a lesson
Life is hella short and I ain't tryna waste a second
But don't ask me why I'm never tryna celebrate
I think about my brother it's just helping me to elevate
I wanna make him proud but I don't care bout being hella bait
I'm fucking up a beat just like a heavyweight anyway
When I rap I do it all for you
I'm steady working in the booth and I got more to do
I swear my heart is really torn in two
RIP my bro you know I'm gonna ball for you
RIP my bro you know I'm gonna ball for you
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28th October 2017 I got the news
Said that's my brother man you got it wrong it can't be true
I started calling I was praying said it can't be you
But Clark you broke my heart
I broke apart must've been hard for you
I know she did you wrong but I ain't know she made you that sad
And now I want her **** for all the hurt she caused I'm that mad
Been fucking with my head a couple months my mentals that bad
I wish you felt the same type of love I swear that cat had
I wasn't in the country but bet I was back the next day
Walking in the house I still remember like it's yesterday
People in the crib were saying at least he took his stress away
I saw my mum in bits I couldn't cope I slowly crept away
Took myself up to my room I hid that's when Kirk walked in
First time I seen the nigga cry
I swear it broke him it broke me
It broke Rhys
It broke Ash
Went ghosty
And now I gotta drink to clear my thoughts or help me cope g
Brothers that I lost
Be strong
Imma ball for you
For my brothers that I lost
Lighter in the sky
I promise not to cry
Imma ball for you
Ball for you
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