She made sure I was happy
She made sure I'm okay
And all I do is smile at her
When I don't have a thing to say
It's no surprise that I'm angry
It's no surprise I hate change
First time alone, I am anxious
First time alone, I'm afraid

But why am I feeling this way?

I know I should be more supportive
I know it's an offer you can't ignore
She's thinking I'd be so certain
She's thinking I'd sit around for her
In the summer I should feel more human
But in the sun I just feel dismay
And I'm so fucking sick of waiting
I'm sick of waiting to make her stay
She was lovely and then I lost her
She was lovely and now she's gone
I'm having trouble staying sober
I'm having trouble being so fucked up
She made sure I was happy
She made sure I'm okay
And all I do is smile at her
When I don't have shit to say