It's my birthday
But I don't feel happy
Forgot what the word means
You know what it's like
No end to the night when
I won't let the light in
Feels like l'm driving krunk
Most of the time
I stare at the walls till they cave in
And never call anyone back
'Cause I know that I'm not worth saving
And who wants to talk about that?
It's my birthday
So I'II drink to my heartache
I know it's the worst way
To leave it behind
If I'm being honest
It's not what I wanted
Feels like it's all too much most of the time
I stare at the walls till they cave in
And never call anyone back
'Cause I know that I'm not worth saving
And who wants to talk about that?
I'm always afraid when there's no onе around
But I can't see my friends 'cause I'm bringing them down
Now I'm closing thе door and I'II shut them all out
So they don't ask me why l'm not better by now
It's my birthday
And I'm hoping the window breaks
To steal my reflection
To show me outside
Sometimes I wonder
If I'll ever love him
Feels like he's all I've got
Most of the time
Funny how all that I want is to leave him behind