I used to think I would be there by now,
I used to think I’d have you by my side
I couldn’t wait to taste the freedom at last,
I couldn’t spend a minute without
thinking ‘bout all the great things I’d see,
all the memories of my childhood dreams
seem to have been lost in translation

whirlwind of things, daydreaming, sleepless nights or oversleeping,
peer pressure, I have enough of my own, no thank you,
paralyzed by my own thoughts, meditation, serotonin,
I must have made a mistake, what if I’m not overthinking

what if I’ll never be alright?
what if all I’m capable of is being stuck in circles?
my best times are still yet to come, right?
I’ll find a way out, I’ll figure it out, right?
I’ll be alright, right?

I used to think about what you might say,
to be completely honest I might never be able to
shake the feeling that we’re supposed to be together off
sometimes I try to find the strength to listen to my mind,
try to accept what I see, try not to be blinded by my
omnipresent, mind-numbing, never-ending fear

innocence to insanity, not knowing to overthinking,
will I ever be enough, doubts are growing through my body,
try to keep up with my limbs, maybe I’ll get over this,
maybe if I speak fast enough, they won’t notice my heart’s missing

what if I’ll never be alright?
what if all I’m capable of is being stuck in circles?
my best times are still yet to come, right?
I’ll find a way out, I’ll figure it out, right?
I’ll be alright, right?

what if I fail? but what if I fly?
maybe I’ll stumble, I might even fall,
maybe I’ll get hurt by hearing you sigh
but maybe I’ll find what I’m supposed to find

I’ll make sure that I’ll feel alright
I’ll make sure that I’ll be capable of more than worry
My best times are still yet to come
I’ll find a way out, I’ll figure it out, I’ll be alright