I wish I mattered
I wish I was relevant
I’m not a commodity
Or kneeling penitent
I’m sick of silence
And of being ignored
My feelings matter
Now as before
Some days I wish
That my heart was black
That I could be cold
And pretend you meant jack
That spark that’s inside
Yearns to be stoked
To keep you warm
To be evoked
I wish I was relevant
I wish that I mattered
My mind is broken
My soul is shattered