I've been fucked up and fucked over
Hearts turn to stone now I'm showing the world the cold shoulder
Turn my back on em see stab wounds that I've mulled over
Holding on to hatred that's sacred to generations older
I fucking hope that you're doing well
since you left and I've been depressed know my life's been a living hell
I'm frightened all by myself
My mom's frightened just for my health
I should tell you that I haven't felt anything since you fell
Sick of fighting with myself
Sick of lying it doesn't help
Sick of trying to beat these demons They're not bleeding from these shells
I want to stop all the violence and I'm tired of the stressing
But the anger and the pain

Is the only way they get the message

I'm stuck in front of the mirror
Wishing that you were here
Wishing that the bitch standing in it would disappear
Thoughts in my head still linger of instilling their men with fear
But the only thing to come is my mom welling up with tears