Wake the fuck up

Hold me closely 'til the reaper ghost me and I'm comatose
Pills and potions, sipping till I'm slipping into overdose
Right outside the golden gates, I'm waiting for the holy ghost
Cause fate done dealt me hell, I'm at the bottom of this totem pole
Hold me closely 'til the reaper ghost me and I'm comatose
Pills and potions, sipping till I'm slipping into overdose
Right outside the golden gates, I'm waiting for the holy ghost
Cause fate done dealt me hell, I'm at the bottom of this totem pole

4 months out, I just didn't show
Got everybody asking, where the fuck did Dylan go
Shit going on in my head
I just didn't know
Now I'm stuck in this house
I never felt more alone
This doctor tells me
I should take this pill, time will heal
Trust me son, it's no big deal
I took a few, waited, and then went downhill
Panic hits, I can't do nothing but just stand still
I don't know where it comes from
And I start asking why
You gotta slow down your breathing
You gotta slow down your mind
My mom don't know what to do, so she just stand by my side
Man, I hate the fact that my pain starts to make her cry

Hold me closely 'til the reaper ghost me and I'm comatose
Pills and potions, sipping till I'm slipping into overdose
Right outside the golden gates, I'm waiting for the holy ghost
Cause fate done dealt me hell, I'm at the bottom of this totem pole
Hold me closely 'til the reaper ghost me and I'm comatose
Pills and potions, sipping till I'm slipping into overdose
Right outside the golden gates, I'm waiting for the holy ghost
Cause fate done dealt me hell, I'm at the bottom of this totem pole

When even the sorrow fades is when you it's rough
I showed 'em tough and done exposed my wounds, and now they bulging up
Please hold me up, ain't have the strength all the time
Saying it'll get better, but I ain't seeing the light
Ain't always treated me right
But I pray you see the sober me
Not the stuck in my ways, 6 months hungover me
Look closely, see the ghostly remnants of a lost soul yearning for a shot to reach his goals, you see
And for what? Fame, power, money, respect
Bitches on your dick, shit and the drugs don't forget
Can't seem to love myself yet
Pass on a hug for a spliff
Keep it bottled 'til it's cracked and rudder sunk from the ship
Am I havin fun with this shit
Not really clearing a path
In my search for finding God
Lucy's been hunting my tracks
Talking bout hundreds of racks, that's all cap and they know it
Who you tryna impress? Won't even ask for the motive
You get your shot you gon blow it, so sit back down on yo couch
Tryna make a livin rappin but can't open your mouth
Better hope for a drought
Yeah, you better hope for a drought
Fuck this, yeah

Hold me closely 'til the reaper ghost me and I'm comatose
Pills and potions, sipping till I'm slipping into overdose
Right outside the golden gates, I'm waiting for the holy ghost
Cause fate done dealt me hell, I'm at the bottom of this totem pole
Hold me closely 'til the reaper ghost me and I'm comatose
Pills and potions, sipping till I'm slipping into overdose
Right outside the golden gates, I'm waiting for the holy ghost
Cause fate done dealt me hell, I'm at the bottom of this

Yo
Apologies ain't my favorite but I really need to say this
Cause I'm really sick of arguing with you about the same shit
I know I need some patience
I swear, momma I'm changing
And I know that you just tryna see me make it
Yeah, I hate it when we fighting over shit that we don't need to
I know want the best for me, I swear that I believe you
So I'm sorry that we at each other necks, It's hard to breathe- soon
I'll be gone, and I don't want to have this burden when I leave you
So I'm sorry
For never spending time with you, I swear
Momma, I'm sorry
For ever rolling my eyes at you, I swear
Momma, I'm sorry
I promise you, I'm tryna be a better son
Cause you deserve an angel, if I could then I would get you one
I'm sorry
For always lashing out when I feel folded up
I'm sorry
Cause this chip up on my shoulder, I been giving you the coldest one, I'm sorry
I just really hope you know, that I'll always be your flower
And you'll always be my rose
Momma, I'm sorry